"Life is difficult. In the hasty confusion of our days, we easily lose sight of basic truths. When we manage to make real contact with a basic truth, sometimes we are inspired to act upon it, and thus may change our lives radically and permanently." -P.M. Forni, Choosing Civility: The Twenty-five Rules of Considerate Conduct
Recently, I have come face to face with some harsh truths. Truths about my future on every level - financially, spiritually, physically, emotionally, etc. After much prayer and soul searching, I have taken the Florida house off the market and have decided to move back. I believe that truth, once told, releases your soul to find it's peace. That is where I find myself today, searching for peace.
It is a good decision because I am so very happy there. I have good friends, a wonderful church, and such peace. I believe it did not sell because I am supposed to be there.
I came back to Georgia to be closer to my doctors because I was doing so badly health wise a year ago. I have come to realize that I am going to have times when the pain is manageable and times when it is not. So it does not matter where I am because the doctors can not do any more for me unless I become paralyzed. If that happens, I will probably die before I get help anyway. I have accepted this and made peace with it. Days when I can't walk very well, I am thankful that I can walk at all.
Why? I broke my neck when I was 23 years old. I broke the same bone that Christopher Reeve broke. There are 18,000+ recorded instances of breaking this bone. Only 250 of those lived. Of those 250 people, I am the only one who walked again. I have an inoperable cyst on my spine that causes me much distress, bouts of immobility, and constant pain. But I have walked and lived for 32 years longer than I should have. So I am blessed.
The pain is the same in Georgia as in Florida. (It would be better in the southwest my doctors say) I am much happier on my tiny island. So why not be where I am happy and peaceful? It is a no brainer. DUH!!!
Thank you for listening to me this morning. I just needed to verbalize it; to bring it into perspective. I ask that you keep me in your prayers and thoughts as I find a way to make this all work.Today's aMUSEment - Count your blessings. Face your truths. Find your peace.
U Be Creative Today!
Monday, May 21, 2007
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4 comments:
You create and you share and you provide us with thought provoking posts. Those of us who come here are the beneficiaries of all you have learned in what has to have been a difficult path.
Thank you.
Darla
I am so glad you are going back. It seems that your heart is there. It is where you should be...I hope this is a path to more wellness...As a good spirit always help. WOW, your story is incredible, I can not believe you recovered as you did? Incredible. I mean, I know you have pain, not to diminish that, but the latter could have been terrible. Destiny. xxo
wow! A miracle! a wonder woman! A blessing! You!
Thank you all for you kind words of support!! R/C
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