This is my first venture into Illustration Friday! A big step for me. Orangina is the muse of orderly rule. I am feeling very overwhelmed tonight absolutely seperate from orderly rule. Everything seems to be in a state of flux right now. My life, my career, my health, my art, my home(s), my dreams, my spirit... Nothing appears really stable. I feel on a precipice, hanging on, but just barely. If one thing shifts slightly the whole will slip. I am not typically sad and gloomy, but I long for that feeling of safe ordinariness that flows from balance.
I am desperately searching for a way to reinvent myself into an artist of smalls. What are smalls? Anything smaller than 6' X 6'! A muralist who can no longer climb scaffolding is a muralist without a means of support - literally, figuratively, and financially!!! It is a scary place to be.
I have managed to keep myself afloat by teaching, editing an industry magazine, writing for publications, and doing some graphic design work. But I long to be painting again. That is where the smalls come in. I had a talk with Michael deMeng last weekend about the fear I am feeling putting my smalls out there. It feels like I am putting one of my children out into the world. Putting this out there for Illustration Friday is a big step for me - a coming out.
I need for my small artworks to sustain me and that places an urgency for creation that can sometimes stifle creativity. I do not know how to proceed. I have no idea how to get my art before the buying public or if they will buy it. I am gently searching for a mentor who can lead me through the maze or, at least, give me a good shove in the right direction. I have to begin selling my art now.
Today's aMUSEment - Are you having trouble putting your creations out into the world? We must find a safe and supportive venue in which to do that. If you do not already have one, consider starting a blog to put your work into the public. It is fairly simple to begin blogging. Blogger.com is free. Or create something to enter into Illustration Friday, Poetry Thursday, 3 Word Wednesday, Self Portrait Tuesday, Sunday Scribblings, etc. I am sure there are others that I have not found as yet. Get your stuff out there!!! I will take the journey with you.U Be Creative Today!
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i totally hear what you are saying about putting one of your children out there! yes, yes. but what you are putting out there over at this wonderful blog of yours is gorgeous! i'm so glad you are participating in illustration friday and hope you will do it again this week. i think i may do it myself. i like the "signs" challenge!
hang in there. it sounds like you are in a period of a life shifting, growing pains, and waiting. it will work out. your talent is wonderful to see and we all have a lot to learn from you.
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