My Sacred Life day 19...
Today sees the return of my daily muse...Orangina is the muse of orderly rule. I am feeling absolutely separate from orderly rule. Everything seems to be in a state of flux right now. My life, my career, my health, my art, my home, my dreams, my spirit... Nothing appears really stable. I feel on a precipice, hanging on, but just barely. I long for that feeling of safe ordinariness that flows from balance.
I am desperately searching for a way to reinvent myself into an artist of smalls. What are smalls? Anything smaller than 6' X 6'! A muralist who can no longer climb scaffolding is a muralist without a means of support - literally, figuratively, and financially!!! It is a scary place to be.
I have managed to keep myself afloat by teaching, editing an industry magazine, writing for publications, and doing some graphic design work. But I long to be painting again and supporting myself with my art. That is where the smalls come in. I had a talk with Michael deMeng a few months ago about the fear I am feeling putting my smalls out there. It feels like I am putting one of my children out into the world. Putting my art out there before I left for Philadelphia was a big step for me - a coming out of sorts.
Next, I have to prepare for my first gallery installation, November 1. I am excited, but terrified at the same time. I need for my small artworks to sustain me and that places an urgency for creation that can sometimes stifle creativity. I do not know how to proceed. I have no idea if anyone will buy it. I am gently searching for a mentor who can lead me through the maze or, at least, give me a good shove in the right direction. I have to begin selling my art now.
The blogging community has been extremely supportive, encouraging me. I have felt very safe in sharing here. The response to my ball gown was overwhelming to me. Perhaps I do have a visual voice that speaks to others.
Today's aMUSEment - Are you having trouble putting your creations out into the world? We must find a safe and supportive venue in which to do that. If you do not already have one, consider starting a blog to put your work into the public. It is fairly simple to begin blogging. Blogger.com is free. Or create something to enter into Illustration Friday, Poetry Thursday, 3 Word Wednesday, Self Portrait Tuesday, Sunday Scribblings, etc. I am sure there are others that I have not found as yet. Get your stuff out there!!! I will take the journey with you.U Be Creative Today!