Tuesday, March 4, 2008

Our deepest fear...

"Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness, that most frightens us. We ask ourselves: Who am I to be brilliant? Actually who are you not to be? You are a child of God. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. Its not just in some of us; it's in everyone. And, as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to so the same. As we were liberated from our fear, our presence automatically liberates others" -a quote of Marianne Williamson from " Return to Love" a reflection in the Course of Miracles, not that of Nelson Mandela as ften stated...


please click here to watch this short video clip...it will change your life....or, at least, adjust your perspective a little...

liberated from fear...this has been my constant prayer for the past few weeks now...my fear that i will loose my loved one and his fear that is clouded by the lies that bind him in deep depression...

living with someone who is in depression is not easy...it consumes our entire life...it is ever present...the pink elephant in the room...we try to ignore...my journey has become very small...encapsulated into getting through the next minute...looking too far ahead is foggy...there seems to be no clarity...just survival...

i love the above quote, whomever wrote it...to remember i am a powerful child of God helps me to be strong when i don't want to...to breathe when it hurts...to stay when i want to run...

i miss my visits to you and have been so blessed with your caring responses and love...every message helps me...every prayer is powerful...i believe that soon i can return to some kind of normal...until then know that i am taking things minute by minute...and my heart is lifted by your visits...

14 comments:

Melissa @ The Inspired Room said...

God sees your pain, dear one, and wants to be right there comforting you and keeping you strong. He loves you and your loved one, hang tight to that.

I wrote an article for CWO this month and it is out now. I think it would be a good one for you, a simple reminder of God's Beautiful Gifts when life isn't so beautiful. www.christianwomenonline.net (The Inspired Room).

Blessings and hugs to you,

Melissa

Linda O'Neill said...

I love the Mandela quote...it's one of my favorites.

Thinking of you and all you're going through, Rebecca. Know that you have lots of people out here supporting you and lifting you up. xox

Sharon Tomlinson said...

Know that I think about the journey you are on now. But do find time for a little art....it helped me.

The Artful Eye said...

Rebecca- You are in my thoughts daily.

I thought I should let you know that this quote is not that of Nelson Mandela. It is a quote of Marianne Williamson from " Return to Love" a reflection in the Course of Miracles.

See here for more with regard from the Nelson Mandela Foundation.

http://www.nelsonmandela.org/index.php/news/article/deepest_fear_quote_not_mr_mandelas/

God Bless- Andrea

Letty Cruz said...

Linked to you from zoranaland. All Good to you and your loved one.

Sharon said...

You are in my prayers.

qualcosa di bello said...

your journey through lent this year sounds like a desert experience. you have love from afar coming your way as you wrestle with the scary parts. every single day the two of you are in my intercessions.

J C said...

Just here to let you know you are not forgotten. HUGS

Anonymous said...

Wonderful post!!! Thank you for the inspiration. :) I'm sorry that I have been rather busy lately. I haven't been able to visit blogs as I usually do. I miss it! I want you to know that you are constantly in my thoughts and prayers. :)
*HUGS*
Angela

Annie Jeffries said...

Just dropping in Rebecca to say hello and see how you and your loved ones are doing. You continue to be in my thoughts and I hold you in my heart.

paris parfait said...

Darling Rebecca, you and yours are very much in my thoughts and prayers. Hoping for better days ahead, dear heart. xoxox

Carolyn said...

Still wishing and sending you my prayers and thoughts Rebecca ..

Hugs

Mary Timme said...

When we are are in the midst of hurting and confusion I've learned to ask a question. I who have all the power of the everything in the Universe and beyond because God loves me, why am I fearful. The answer is never God.

When someone you love is depressed it does consume you. I've been through it with my DH also and then, just before the meds kicked in and he started to do better he asked me to just sit in the garage with him and doggy and we'd just all die together while the cars ran. I lost it. I ranted and raved for 4 and one half hours about what an immature, inconsiderate SOB he was to suggest such a thing and to stop feeling so damn sorry for himself. I'd stop about every twenty minutes, do something else in the house and come back and rant some more. In 30 plus years together it is amazing stuff I didn't even consciously remember came out, and later I was so ashamed. But it hit the fan that day. I think, I told him I was going to the nail lady and if he wanted to kill himself to do it somewhere else as I didn't deserve to have clean up the mess a body makes when it dies and I'd be glad to give him pointers on how to do it, and I was taking the dog with me. I was Not a nice person that day.

Still, it all worked out and DH was where he was when I'd left and still with a stunned look on his face. We sat down and talked for about 8 more hours--which we had been doing for months--and got a lot cleared up. He started to get better shortly after that.

I'm telling you this as I'm not always a nice person and neither is what we face in life, but I'm loved by God and Cleaned up to face his by Jesus. I can do anything with that kind of power behind me!

Lisa Oceandreamer Swifka said...

I wanted to come by and give you a hug, to tell you I think of you often, to give you a hand to hold. This road you are both on is a very arduous journey....I have every hope that it will eventually turn a corner towards a smoother road.
XOXOXO
Love,
Lisa