Open to the Possibilities of Change...

for those of us in the midst of realizing that our plans for ourselves may be different from those of our destiny....life can be confusing, exciting, terrifying, enthralling...and more than a little off balance...

Today's Intention on my October 14, 2007 post was:

ask for the ancient path...and walk in it...
"Stand at the crossroads and look; ask for the ancient path, ask where the good way is, and walk in it, and you will find rest for your souls." (Jeremiah 6:16)

to the reflective mind, i am in the midst of a major spiritual transition where i am to grow my higher wisdom...i have created all the experiences in my life...to learn specific lessons, hopefully gaining wisdom and understanding within the process...if learned, i integrate the lessons into my being...if not, i am bound to repeat them until i do...

i must admit that my perception of a perfect world may be skewed...i have been searching for a way of fitting or molding my future according to the conditions unfolding in my life...i did not choose them...i did not even see them coming...but they happened nonetheless....

the focus of my energies shifted to survival...my long-term goals dissolved into immediate life-saving concerns...and my personal world became very small...

practicality is the main goal of each day (and i am so not practical)...forward visioning has been put aside until i become more centered...i find myself betwixt and between reality and possibility... the confusion, illusion, and delusion can get the better of me if i allow it...i choose not to allow it...

so i am embracing the prospects and possibilities of a destiny much different than what i had planned...even with this new year's resolutions...

during this journey i have been forced to take inventory and open baggage that had been so carefully tucked away....i am confronting my worst fears-loss of security, my job, my home...but i am discovering a new strength...a new wisdom...even a new power (if i dare to speak it)...

i realize that i am moving into a new paradigm where my sense of restriction is vanishing...my fading commitments and obligations have become obstacles to my getting to my new and improved future...

"an artist is born..." 2007 - Graphite drawing, color photos, PhotoShop on paper

a metamorphosis of mind, body and soul is underway...even as i commit this to visual form in writing, i am feeling the release...the more powerful woman emerging...with reverence and respect for myself, with individuality, and a comprehensive moral purpose....

miracles are all around us...whether we choose to believe or not...and we may question that statement especially when we find ourselves knee deep in the muck we have created for ourselves..

our destiny is controlled by the choices we make...pessimism and cynicism can seep into our being just as optimism and hope can...one of my best life lessons was coming to fully understand that we can choose our attitude...and that one choice then influences our behaviors...which lead us toward the creation of a new future...

just for today i will remain open to the possibility of change...

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ps...GREAT NEWS!!!!  after posting today...i received a job offer...it is a good one for this tiny island...and the answer to my prayers...i will be retouching photos in photoshop...for vacation portraits...wish me luck returning to the work force after 18 years working for myself...well, technically, i am still working for myself as it is a contract job...but i am excited that my prayers have been answered!!!