Sunday, April 19, 2009

regrets...


when this happens and your little street looks like this...



in your beautiful, quiet neighborhood...it is time to reflect...

Two of my neighbors (Richard and Myra Larkin) are gone today...murdered in their home four doors down from me...perhaps by their son...

Update 4/24/09...stories here and here...the right of Christian burial was Friday, April 23rd at St. Michael's Catholic Church...I knew them as neighbors and fellow church members...I am still hurting today, as many of our neighbors are for this lovely couple...Myra's flowers are beginning to bloom...bright purple amidst the shrubs...wreaths lay on the driveway signifying the events of the past few weeks...i spoke to God about them this morning during my beach prayers and He told me, "They are my His care now, at peace in My arms." I believe they are...

i have only two regrets in my life...that i went bowling on saturday november, 9, 1975...and unfinished business with my friend who died november 14, 1970 before i could say, "i'm sorry."

in the first case, my life was changed forever when i broke my neck (C1) in a fall...was in a hospital room for several months...a leather and steel brace from my waist to my chin for several more months...and in pain ever since...

in the second, i walked out on a date with Allen Skeens (number 59) on a lame excuse, went out with some other friends, and he was there...he told me off, i cried...and he was killed in the Marshall University football team plane crash a few months later...


both of these events changed me and became part of my herstory...who would i be if one or both of these things had not happened? that is up for speculation...but the who i am today is a reflection of these and other minor things that have shaped the woman i am today...

the pain of both of these remains with me every day...the physical challenges i face with my body and the fact that i pray for Allen every night (as good Catholics do pray for the dead)...

last night i had two more people to pray for...that i had seen driving or walking past my home many times in the last nine years...

all the pain and heartache that has been in my herstory has laid the groundwork for my life's mission which will be (r)Evealed later this week...as i step into my purpose, no leap into my purpose...

5 comments:

qualcosa di bello said...

oh my gosh...hugs to you in this sad time. may the perpetual light shine upon them & may they rest in peace

Naturegirl said...

Rebecca! I am in shock as I read your opening sentence!!Too close to home!
I at times question the timing of why things happen to us in this life why certain souls leave when they do .I believe God puts people before us and allows situations to happen in our lives for a reason...now the question..is why...dig deep the answer will come to you.
I too am going through "stuff" and answers are coming to me. At times the timing just sucks when things happen!
Praying for you and your neighbors family. May you find the peace that you are hoping for. embracing you hugs aNNa xo

susanna said...

Oh nooo...what sad news about your friends and neighbors... That's a terrible event beyond words.

Yes, certain actions - or the ramifications after an action - can shape who we may become but I hope that you are not punishing yourself for those two past events, especially because you were so young when they happened.

I'm curious to hear what your life's mission will be...I'll be back!

Lisa said...

Rebecca,
I got a nudge to see what was new on your blog.
I am still digesting what you wrote.
I send you love and healing.
I appreciate You
Smiles
Lisa

Renee said...

In shock over the death of your neighbors....my deep felt thoughts and prayers be with you and their families.

I so much understand your pain of regrets...they do weigh very heavy on ones heart and where your life takes you from those times.

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